I suppose most of the songs that I write are pretty sad but I think this one takes the cake.
Short version, this song is about my crippling self doubt, my lack of self esteem and my inability to say no.
Long version, back in the day, when someone would tell me that they liked me, I would be blown away by the fact that anyone could, so I would jump on the opportunity because I felt as though something like that would never come along again. And then when someone else came along, I would be amazed again and would want all of the attention from everyone. I also wouldn't want to say no to either because I wouldn't want to hurt anyone so I would lie. I would chronically lie until it would blow up in my face and then I would lie some more.
The song progresses into my depression and how poorly I delt with my emotions. How I would be surrounded by pizza boxes and dirty laundry because the lazy would be the only thing I could accomplish in that state of mind.
It speaks of how I know I did wrong and how it was never me going out of my way to be cruel to others. I was just on a self destructive path and unfortunately I got other people caught up in my tornado.
Sidenote: If you know me personally, please don't let this scare you. I'm fine now, I promise!
Megan <3
lyrics
Been down this road so many times,
could probably just do it blind
You say hello, how do you do
next thing I know I'm regretting you
And I, I oh how I lie
Just to feel, feel so alive
and the winds from the east, they have carried me all this time
they know where I must be, but for now just let me sleep
Oh the snow lies in rows
on the sidewalks of the city
and I watch the time slink past
like a movie, an endless movie
and I hope to no end that this darkness will pass me soon
and step aside for the springtime
for sunny days and fresh air
And now I, I oh how I lie
Just to feel, feel so alive
and the winds from the east, they have carried me all this time
they know where I must be, but for now just let me sleep
(Sax solo)
In the dark I am surrounded
by pizza boxes & dirty laundry
and the sound of my voice has become foreign to your ears
and maybe one day you'll hear this song, and know I never meant any harm
and now I, I oh how I lied,
just today, today to get by.
and the winds they cut deep as they pass me one more time
and you'll never ask me why
when I let you know that I'm fine
so I sing and I drink
Who else knows how this song even goes?
credits
from Lady,
released December 22, 2014
Written by: Megan Vivares
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